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Today an interest in Greek polytheism has crept upon me and now won't go away! I've been reading articles on theoi.com as well as hellenion.org and I'm finding that a lot of it is ringing true.

Who knows...maybe I'll try to become a Hellenic Reconstructionist as well. :P

Today I went into the woods to commune with the local spirits in order to gain permission to worship in the area. At first, I felt a very nervous vibe, but I'm not sure if that was my own feelings or maybe the feelings of both parties...anyways, I didn't bring anything for an offering this time, but I did a bit of cleaning up by moving some dead branches that had a plant pinned down. After I did that, I felt the tension ease a lot, so I'm sure they realized I wasn't there to do any harm; at least, not intentionally.

My stay in the woods was only about thirty minutes, but I think this is a good start. I'm going to go back in a few days and try some more communing and bring some offerings so I can better gain their trust. I want to be sure they're ok with it before I do any ritual out there.

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Yesterday I bought some materials to set up an altar for Manannán mac Lir. I bought some cloth, decorative stones, incense, candles, and an offering cup. I also included a seashell that I brought home from the beach several years ago. I decided to make an altar for Manannán instead of all the deities I worship because I don't live anywhere near the ocean, so I can build outside altars for Brìde, Lugus and the Cailleach, but the old sea God was a bit harder. I'm pleased with it, but I can't wait until one day when I'm living on the shores of Nova Scotia...

I feel something almost as strong as a spiritual connection to Nova Scotia. Have you ever wanted to go somewhere so badly that your soul aches, but you've never been there before? That's how I feel. It's an unsettling feeling. Whenever I get done with graduate school I would love to vacation there one summer, just to see how it goes.

This journal is an attempt to help translate my beliefs about the world into some form of tangible reality. I tend to feel awkward with expressing my personal beliefs, so this could be seen as an exercise at an attempt to gain a deeper understanding of myself and my spirituality. I am a polytheist with a bit of background in Luciferianism and eclectic Wicca who feels a strong connection to different deities: Manannán mac Lir, Brìde, Lugus, and the Cailleach. They have a very important place in my life; however, I must admit that I have not as of yet actively worshipped any of them. Does this make me a polytheist in the truest sense? And here the dilemma begins...

My journaling will not focus so much on my day-to-day routines but instead on my experiences with the world and how I am changed, for better or worse, because of it. I'm just a kid trying to educate myself and make sense of what I believe. I don't know it all, and I never will, so there will never be any grandiose claims here. It's just...an earnest exploration, if you will.

I'm welcome to making friends in the various Pagan communities, but there are some things that I simply will not tolerate: homophobia, transphobia, sexism, racism, or religious fundamentalism of any kind. If you think we'll learn something from each other, then by all means, add me. I'll be glad to add you back.

Sincerely,
Sarah